Cry2theSky

Cry2theSky

By: Colt Abel

For #LGBT kids everywhere ....

Alone in the dark I sit, a mouse amongst wolves; all snapping, growling, full of anger and hate for the spark that rests just underneath the guarding shield of a mask that shall be appropriate for my bland disguise; an undetectable costume built within the skin so to put on the air of a constant character, like one would see up on stage or on screen; for the wolves are scary, deranged, violent predators; not a one of them holds a single atomic shred of empathy or regret for the heinous crimes unjustly and often horribly committed against me and my kind; the free bright rainbow bleeders and the monster cocksuckers; the low left side swingers that flock, parade, and cheer with whole and happy hearts like so called silly women; little girls in dresses and pink panties; we’re a strange breed of animal that is feared and loathed and mocked to the butt of the joke; never in truth are we understood by the whore mongering skirt chaser cads of our peers; those that find us so “unholy” while they pillage and plunder by force; we are soon found dead at the end of our rope, a sad and sorrowful defeat; we are for the most part greatly outnumbered by the aggressive brutes that will try to harmfully without remorse cause the quick shortening of our lives; with given support and to let our out-cry of voiced chorus be heard, this is no choice: we are gay, because simply, we were born this way, it is who we are …

It is not a disease, an abominate illness that one can get resolved or most often put, “fixed”; a problem cannot be repaired if there is nothing present broken -- we are not broken or battered or in a state Of non-use like a clogged shower faucet, a shiny trinket that must run with perfection and quality; nobody is perfect, yet we are no worse than those who haunt us; our equality must effectively be reached; release and surrender to us Lady Liberty, our statuesque queen who reigns majestically with red, white, and blue freedoms; that noble guarantee that the wolves both love and despise because it gives them what they desire, yet it also yells to the sky what they greatly fear: ALL MEN ARE CREATED EQUAL – they are afraid so very much like children in massive distress of the monster in the closet -- which is how we are seen: monsters and violators and abominations as we depart from our closeted homes to expand and manifest our biggest profession of destiny: to love who we want and to have who we need; we only ask that you admit your mistake of carelessly robbing us like thieves in the night; please open your eyes and clearly see, and let us ceremoniously and in pure acceptance be hate free …

  

A Holy Fool for JUDAS

It's finally here! The next single from Lady Gaga's upcoming album, "Born This Way", is the long awaited "JUDAS" .... After listening to the song a few times, I can already conclude without a doubt that this woman has the ability to continuously top everyone around her in the music industry, including herself!

Lady Gaga has seemed to have risen straight from the shadows into tremendous fame overnight with her debut, "JUST DANCE", but we know that the beginning of fame almost never has a 24 hours or lest launch period. It's all complicated.

But anyway, back to the song ......

Gaga herself has stated in interviews and I have also read different articles and the like, that the song is mostly about dating or being with Christian-like men that turn out to be very "Judas-esque" and betrayal in a sense .... And anyone who has ever been cheated on or betrayed by a lover, or even a really close friend can probably relate to this song. And I think a big part of it -- just my opinion -- may have to do with these Christians that we encounter in our daily life that will argue that being gay is wrong or just living a different lifestyle  that is not the social norm is immoral to God, and a crime against nature, blah, blah, blah .... ENOUGH ALREADY!!! It is really people like that, that judge other people when it is truly them that don't lead the honest, good quality life .... And in that, they turn out to be "JUDAS" .... Agree? Just keep your faith strong ........

But back to Gaga .......

I really like this song, like every other sound Lady Gaga seems to pop out ... While others will argue that she is just an attention-seeking standout schlub who wants to get noticed, I say, you need to really rethink your words. This just proves that Gaga can keep the hits coming.

Because, like any fanboy, I am a fool for GaGa .... And now, I have become a holy fool, for "JUDAS" ...

Co-worker Crush

Have you ever been at work/on the job, and realize that you have feelings for someone that may not even know you exist? Yeah, I know: it's the blatant subject matter of every junior high chick flick and every Lifetime movie for the younger crowd that leaves every 16 year old wallflowers in tears by the closing credits. This, ladies and gentleman, is the crush. And in my case, the "Co-worker Crush" .... I too have been afflicted by this curse.

There are a few things that are different though in my case. For one thing, the guy knows that I existence. Actually we went to high school together, only he graduated about four years before me. To be honest, he graduated a year before my best friend, Marilyn did. And not to reveal too much, because I don't know who exaclty might be reading this, (haha) let's just call him "B" considering that's the letter that his name starts with!

But first, I have to explain my working conditions. Coming from the small town that I do, you have to understand that there aren't many working options around here. And as for the economy, well let's face it: the whole nation's economy is in the shit hole! But anyways, I work  in a little video rental place inside a a grocery store chain. And in that place of popcorn grease, angry customers, and bratty children, I have found something to make me last .... B ..... As someone who has known him long before this whole slam-bang working environment, I have to say that he only looks better than before. Not that he looked awful before .... He's always had that cute factor. But I of all people know that looks aren't everything. Not in Virginia, anyway ..... He is sweet too, a great humble person, with a good laugh (lol) ..... He is in training to become the assistant manager. Talk about wanting to please the boss! (haha) But getting back on a serious note, I have to admit that it would never work out between us. Alas, he is straight. To tweak a book title at the expense of trying not to be too lame, a good "gay" man is hard to find (haha) ..... Oh well, back to the drawing board, you guys .....

Have you ever had a co-worker crush? How about just a crush? If you'd like to share, please comment. And if you have any advice for me about love, I would love to hear that too .....

I'll talk later, going to write some ..... Au revoir, for now ....

The Sex Appeal of Tattoos

Okay, so recently I have been really into the idea of tattoos. And when I say "recently", I mean today. Not that I have never liked them before, it's just on this particular day, I seem to notice them more. For a person who has never had one, or hasn't ever really dreamed or even fantasized about getting a tattoo, the thought that I would ever get one kinda makes me laugh. This is mostly because I don't like needles. Never have, and trust me when I say that I absolutely never will. But when I see someone with a single tattoo or someone who may have a "sleeve" or array of tattoos, I can't help being drawn to them. To me, someone that has tattoos seems very curious to me, someone that I really want to be around. It's like the presence of a good tattoo has the power to make a person cooler .... Like the whole James Dean image that affected the art of smoking (yes, an art). I honestly think that tattoos are very attractive in a person and depending on who it i, gives them a high sex appeal ........

Before I continue with this conversation, you should know that I am gay. There, I said it. If that offends you, I am sorry you feel that way. Go have a nice life. If it doesn't offend you .... Well, let's just keep going .........

Now that that's over .....

Back on the whole tattoos being sexy thing ..... Right. Well, for me, the most appealing tattoo is when you see the types of guys that only go out in tank tops because the type of "tats" they have  are the long sleeve of colorful designs that trail way up on the shoulder and sometimes on the neck and trail down the arm to the hand. For me, that is really sexy. I'm not gonna lie: if I met a guy like that, one that was decent looking enough and didn't have an asshole personality, I would go to bed with him -- if he was gay, of course. And I am completely serious. I would straight up fuck him, you guys. Tattoos like that on a guy are just a real turn-on for me. They make a guy look really sexy and hot if they are done right on the right guy. And I can also admit that they do make girls look sexy too. Not enough for me to sleep with haha, but okay enough. In fact, my best friend, Marilyn has five tattoos and she is amazing. Although, she would be amazing with or without them regardless, but .... You get the idea: "SEX APPEAL!!!"

A lot of things seem to influence the inspiration behind tattoos and the reasons people get them. It can be anything from the person your dating, to a cartoon character, or even inspired by a favorite celebrity. And that's another thing: people want to copy and emulate the "Hollywood factor" and celebs have a great deal to do with that. If your went around door to door and spoke to all the talents in Hollywood right at this moment, I was wager that over ninety percent of them have tattoos. In fact, one my favorite writers has tattoos. Diablo Cody, the Oscar winning screenwriter of JUNO has tats. Now I'm not going to go out and get a tattoo just because I admire her and her work, but that's me ...... She is just one of many, I assure you .... Although, you should already know that Hollywood is an "inked community" (I should coin that phrase!) And if you didn't know that, well wake up! lol

To be honest, I'm not sure that I would ever get a tattoo. I know that looks bad to say considering I really like guys that have them .... It's just ..... Like I said before, I don't really well with needles. This comes from early childhood trauma with being in and out of the hospital for medical reasons. I won't say what for -- it's too soon. But maybe I will open up about that in time .....

I do think that I would probably get what is called a Henna tattoo .... The designs are painting onto your skin and last for a while, eventually fading off ...... It's not fully permanent, but for someone like me is very impulsive and changes his mind often, I think that it would be perfect ......

But that's all for now, talk later ......

Another Blog ....

If you're reading this, thanks! My name is Colt .... Yes, like the revolver, not like the football team .... I am a writer geek and wannabe filmmaker, the type of person that would stand out in a crowd even if everyone on the planet looked exactly the same. I'm just that guy, really.

So anyway, I am currently living in Powell Valley in southwest Virginia, a small little conservative suburbia that I have deemed the "Gray, White, and Black" ...... In this place, I am not where I want to be, trust me. I long and dream for the warm California shores of the Golden Coast ..... Though upon arrival, you could most likely find me in a coffee shop somewhere like StarBuck's drinking anything but coffee and writing ..... However to some this could all seem farfetched and a long shot considering I live on the other side of the country ..... But enough ranting on that for now ....

The main purpose of this blog is to let you in on my life, because no matter how boring it is here, my existence is anything but ordinary ......

When I reach the set goal I have for myself of being one of those scribes who is making a living off of his/her craft, I promise you will be the first to know ..... Just wait and see, because we writers are making a comeback, one written word of dialogue at a time ....

That's all for now, but I'll talk later .....

Colt